I wake before you
Watching you peacefully sleep
Trying not to wake you
As to the call I keep
The promise I made
Before we had even met
But for your love and understanding
I will strive for promises not yet kept
But my love…
Duty calls…
And again I must leave
To protect those who despise
And will never understand
The promise to protect and serve
Is often above the man…
Who answers the call
Not knowing what into we wade
But the call of duty
Is one that never fades
So do not fret my love
For I hold you so dear
Knowing that you are there
The call of duty is one
That I will never fear…
~Written for my Love~
Dreams
I dream of your touch while you are away,
I dream of your smile all through the day,
I remember the day,
You came into my life,
I dream of the day I will be your wife.
I dream of the day I can fall asleep next to you,
I dream of the day I can say I do.
To be your wife,
To be together for life,
Is a dream I have,
Every night.
THE THINGS THAT I HIDE
The things that I hide...
are kept way down deep inside.
Scared to bother, wanting to please...
making sure no one can tell and that no one sees.
Not saying the things, that need to be said...
but instead letting it all keep piling up in my head.
Keeping a smile under it all...
always trying to stand up proud and tall.
Forcing a laugh, while holding it all inside...
knowing that someday I can no longer hide.
Keeping the secrets hid so deep...
hiding so no one can see me weep.
Not scared that they’d see me when I’m wrong...
but scared they’d see me when I’m less than strong.
At times I start to let things slip out, but never them all...
because I’ll close back up, and once again put up that wall.
A silence comes over me, words will cease...
thoughts flooding my mind, just trying to find peace.
I feel nothing but emptiness, I do nothing but stare...
there’s no anger, no hate, it’s just like nothing is there.
It’s like being emotionless, it’s hard to explain...
there’s just nothing inside me, not even pain.
I go off alone, deep down in my shell...
thoughts in my head that I want to tell.
Questions and answers all swirling around...
my eyes close tight as I begin to feel my heart pound.
I know I’ll get through it, I’ve been here before...
I know I can pick myself back up, once more.
Someday I’ll understand, I know the answers will be there...
until then I’ll just keep trying my best, to trust and to be fair.
My hope is that someday, I too, can be understood...
because if given the chance, I know that I could.
The only thing I’ve ever wanted, the only thing I felt I never had...
is just a heart that can understand me, even when I’m sad.
It’s not so much the words that are spoken, but the eyes that say it all...
it’s the heart that can understand me, that will finally tear down my wall.
As sure as the wind, no matter what and no matter where...
someday that heart will understand me and finally care.
Then, and only then, will the things that I hide...
no longer have to be kept, way down deep inside.
Way down deep inside...
...are the things that I hide...
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